Do you ever have something you want to tell someone but just because of situations you don't?
Anyhow -- carry on...
I'm reading Beth Moore's "So Long Insecurity". Holy cow. I am seeing myself on every page. Wonderful read! Barnes and Noble was offering Angie Smith's "I Will Carry You" book as an ebook for free. I downloaded that puppy and have cried most of the way through it. I highly recommend both of them. (picking back up after I went to sleep finally at 2 a.m.). I got halfway through IWCY. I kinda knew what to expect because I read Angie's blog, but it was nothing in preparation for the words of Angie as she goes through the grief surrounding the death of her daughter (who, incidentally, was born 6 months and 23 days before Leah). I cannot even begin to imagine her pain - nor do I want to.Mother's Day was not how I had planned. Bug had her 18 month appointment on Friday. She got 2 shots...one was the Hep A (I had forgotten about her getting it but anyhow) and the other was a booster for a strep/pneum (I think) shot series she got last year. Hello, shots....welcome fever. All. Weekend. Long. We had to go to a wedding and she was in a good mood, just had that stinkin fever going on. Midday Sunday she finally got better. We didn't go to church Sunday because even though I knew it was from the shots, I didn't want to take her back there with the other kids just in case.
I still have moments when I go "wow, I'm a mom". After 8+ years of waiting and praying and crying and screaming (at John, at God, at whoever) she is here. I love that little girl so much. I'm so proud that God chose me to become her mommy. She is a special girl.
I guess I'll sign off for now...I'm sure I'll have more to say later (still a little drowsy over here).
