I guess that is an appropriate title. As of last Monday (May 9th)...I am trying to lose weight again. My first weigh-in May 16th - I had lost 7 lbs. I am excited that I lost those 7, but I know this is just the beginning. That's ok though. I didn't gain all this overnight....it's not going to go away overnight either. My first mini-goal is 50 lbs by my birthday. That's roughly 11 weeks. It's not impossible. If I don't get it exactly, I'm still not going to give up.
Another thing is on August 6th (my 35th birthday) - there is a 5K in Smyrna. I kinda think I want to do it. What better birthday present to myself than to run/walk a 5K?
Why am I doing this you may ask? Well, it's not only to look better in clothes or feel better about myself. Yes, I do want to look better and I do want to feel better about myself, BUT the main reason I'm doing this? My 2 1/2 year old daughter. She deserves to have a mommy that can run with her, play with her, and not get tired soon after starting. She deserves to have a healthy mommy.
See, I've always been the fat kid. I got teased a lot in school, didn't go on many dates. Face it: the guys that bigger girls like don't like bigger girls. They want the trophy girlfriends. Now, don't get me wrong, I did meet some guys that accepted me as I was....and for that I was thankful. I met John and he liked me the way I was. He likes me the way I am, but I don't like me. Does that make any sense at all? There are parts of me that I like...but the bad outweighs the good. So, here I am again. I'm on week 2 of however many weeks it will take to get me to a place where I am content. I know I have a journey ahead of me. All I have to do is look at my daughter, and I have the motivation that I need. Good friends are helping, too. I'm very blessed.
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
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2 comments:
I love what you've done with your blog, it is so cute.. as for your journey, you know I am here for you and I will keep letting you know that. I am already so proud of you , you have done an amazing job already and you just remember you are doing this for yourself and your family.. but YOU have to come first. I love ya girl, you are like my sister.
Keep it up! You can reach your goals because you have such great motivation!
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