Wednesday, March 30, 2011

How's It Gonna Be?

-- I wrote this March 8, showed up as January 26th so I had to edit it--

How is it that stuff that shouldn't bother you does?  Did that even makes sense?  Oh well - my blog - my thoughts -- get over it.  I guess I'm not the only one that feels this way. One of my bestie's & I have discussed the situations that bug us and thankfully, she feels the same way I do.  Things happen. People move on. You move on. The memories still remain.  The happiness of what was there kinda hangs on like a cobweb.  The what-if's haunt. People may fault me for my feelings or opinions.  You know what? I'm human.  I'm entitled to feelings. I'm entitled to my opinions.  You don't like them? So? I don't like your shirt.  Deal with it. ;) (that was supposed to be sarcastic humor).

On a different note: I'm ready for sunshine.  I'm ready for spring flowers.   I'm ready to be happy.  A week ago today we laid my Ma to rest beside my Popa.  I didn't think I'd be able to breathe but I did.  Wednesday wasn't so hard.  It's like a piece of me is missing BUT I have peace.  It's not to say that there is going to be a day when I won't have a complete meltdown....but right now I am taking it day by day.  I can only handle one day at a time.