Crazy! These temperatures are absurd. Low 90s for most of the week and then it doesn't get lower that 70* at night. It's gonna be a hot one. I was hoping for a small spring, but looks like our Spring was rain showers and tornado watches/warnings.
I did an early weigh-in because tonight is our church's picnic and I didn't want to stress over eating. Now, I'm not going to go out and go hog wild (simply because I've been doing this for almost a month and binging is not part of my vocabulary any more). I'm going to make smaller portion choices and I'm going to enjoy myself. Plus, there are trails around the lake, and I plan on taking advantage of those and go on a good walk. Why not exercise and enjoy myself right? :)
Oh yeah-- back to the weigh-in: I lost 1.6 lbs. I have lost 11 lbs total. I am pretty doggone proud of myself.
I need to get busy getting stuff together!
~Shel
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Friday, June 3, 2011
Just a .8!
I have a new follower (Hi!!!). I'm excited! I love my little blog and I'm going to try to visit it more often.
This past Monday (5/30) I did my typical Monday morning weigh-in (I need a clever name for that) and I lost .8 lbs. I struggled with that .8? That's IT?!?! Ok...breathe, breathe....it's a loss. That's 9.4 lbs in 3 weeks. I'm not starving...I'm eating healthier choices. BUT it's JUST a .8!!!! I don't know if you've picked up on this yet (ha!) but .8 just wasn't cutting for me. Soooo the negative self-talk started. "See, I knew you couldn't stick with it"...."See, this is going to take forever"....you get the picture. For some reason though - this time I'm not giving up. The negative self-talk (please tell me I'm not the only person who has this) pops into my head occasionally but for the most part I've smacked it down. I'm not listening this time. This time there is someone else involved. This time there is a little person that needs me. I'm not saying that Hubs doesn't need me, BUT he's grown and he can take care of himself. That little 2 1/2 year old blonde hair, blue eyed blessing needs her mommy. She needs a healthy mommy. She needs a mommy that can run, play games, and interact; NOT a mommy that sits on the sidelines. I know I said that before in my post, but I mean it. And the more times I say it - the more it's going to motivate me to do something.
I also have another little game plan going. You ready for this? Are you sure?
I am going to complete 20 miles in the month of June. Ok...wait...don't faint...it's ok...deep breaths. There that's better. Yep, in the month of June, I am going to (walk, jog, etc.) 20 miles. More if I can. We shall see.
Hope you all have a fabulous weekend...and leave me comments....I'm a comment junkie LOL
~Shel
This past Monday (5/30) I did my typical Monday morning weigh-in (I need a clever name for that) and I lost .8 lbs. I struggled with that .8? That's IT?!?! Ok...breathe, breathe....it's a loss. That's 9.4 lbs in 3 weeks. I'm not starving...I'm eating healthier choices. BUT it's JUST a .8!!!! I don't know if you've picked up on this yet (ha!) but .8 just wasn't cutting for me. Soooo the negative self-talk started. "See, I knew you couldn't stick with it"...."See, this is going to take forever"....you get the picture. For some reason though - this time I'm not giving up. The negative self-talk (please tell me I'm not the only person who has this) pops into my head occasionally but for the most part I've smacked it down. I'm not listening this time. This time there is someone else involved. This time there is a little person that needs me. I'm not saying that Hubs doesn't need me, BUT he's grown and he can take care of himself. That little 2 1/2 year old blonde hair, blue eyed blessing needs her mommy. She needs a healthy mommy. She needs a mommy that can run, play games, and interact; NOT a mommy that sits on the sidelines. I know I said that before in my post, but I mean it. And the more times I say it - the more it's going to motivate me to do something.
I also have another little game plan going. You ready for this? Are you sure?
I am going to complete 20 miles in the month of June. Ok...wait...don't faint...it's ok...deep breaths. There that's better. Yep, in the month of June, I am going to (walk, jog, etc.) 20 miles. More if I can. We shall see.
Hope you all have a fabulous weekend...and leave me comments....I'm a comment junkie LOL
~Shel
Monday, May 30, 2011
Friend Makin' Monday
FMM: ABC's of Me
A) Apples. I love apples. I'm not a big fan of applesauce though...I think it's the texture.
B) Best Friends. I have some of the best friends a girl could ask for. They are my sounding board, my support system, and just there when I need them....they know who they are :)
C) Chocolate. I'm not wanting it nearly as much as I used to. That's a plus.
D) Dance. I may look goofy as all get out but I love to dance around the house. My favorite dance partner is my 2 1/2 year old daughter.
E) Exercise. I like to do it. I procrastinate like crazy but I always feel better if I do it.
F) Football. I love football. Honestly, I prefer NFL to College ball.
G) Glee. I LOVE GLEE. Yes, I am a Gleek.
H) Hot weather. I am NOT a fan. 75 with a breeze and I'm good.
I) Ice cream. Major weakness....especially Dairy Queen.
J) John. My hubs. We've been married almost 12 years.
K) Kickboxing. I hope to do it one day.
L) Leah. My 2 1/2 year old awesome little girl. She is my motivation.
M) Music. I love music...almost any kind...but especially the stuff with a good beat and love it loud! Except when my daughters in the car, then it usually becomes a Veggie Tales moment.
N) Nieces & Nephews. Love them :)
O) Orangutan. I believe they are my favorite in the monkey family. Does anyone remember Clyde?
P) Procrastination. I am GREAT at procrastinating.
Q) Quote. Just a random one "I knew you wouldn't be opposed to a little grand theft auto" Alice Cullen- Eclipse.
R) Rabbits. I always wanted a pet rabbit....never happened.
S) Shelly. That's ME ;0)
T) Twitter. I use Twitter...you just never know what you are going to read on there.
U) Umbrella. I usually never have one with me when it's raining. I just take my chances getting wet.
V) Vain. I'm so not vain. I mean I like to look nice, but I'm not going to be all "ooohh look at me" or look in a mirror every 5 minutes, or take 1,000,000 pictures of myself....I usually hate having my picture taked.
W) Water. I am terrified of deep (over 5 feet) water. I can't swim.
X) Xanadu. Does anyone really remember this song? It's the only X I could come up with without copy Kenz. LOL
Y) Yellow. I am not crazy about the color yellow. It's ok...but not my favorite.
Z) Zach Morris. Yes, I think almost every girl had a crush on the Zach Morris. Saved by the Bell? Oh COME ON...you have to remember Saved by the Bell.
And that is just a glimpse into the ABCs of me.
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Here we go again...
I guess that is an appropriate title. As of last Monday (May 9th)...I am trying to lose weight again. My first weigh-in May 16th - I had lost 7 lbs. I am excited that I lost those 7, but I know this is just the beginning. That's ok though. I didn't gain all this overnight....it's not going to go away overnight either. My first mini-goal is 50 lbs by my birthday. That's roughly 11 weeks. It's not impossible. If I don't get it exactly, I'm still not going to give up.
Another thing is on August 6th (my 35th birthday) - there is a 5K in Smyrna. I kinda think I want to do it. What better birthday present to myself than to run/walk a 5K?
Why am I doing this you may ask? Well, it's not only to look better in clothes or feel better about myself. Yes, I do want to look better and I do want to feel better about myself, BUT the main reason I'm doing this? My 2 1/2 year old daughter. She deserves to have a mommy that can run with her, play with her, and not get tired soon after starting. She deserves to have a healthy mommy.
See, I've always been the fat kid. I got teased a lot in school, didn't go on many dates. Face it: the guys that bigger girls like don't like bigger girls. They want the trophy girlfriends. Now, don't get me wrong, I did meet some guys that accepted me as I was....and for that I was thankful. I met John and he liked me the way I was. He likes me the way I am, but I don't like me. Does that make any sense at all? There are parts of me that I like...but the bad outweighs the good. So, here I am again. I'm on week 2 of however many weeks it will take to get me to a place where I am content. I know I have a journey ahead of me. All I have to do is look at my daughter, and I have the motivation that I need. Good friends are helping, too. I'm very blessed.
Another thing is on August 6th (my 35th birthday) - there is a 5K in Smyrna. I kinda think I want to do it. What better birthday present to myself than to run/walk a 5K?
Why am I doing this you may ask? Well, it's not only to look better in clothes or feel better about myself. Yes, I do want to look better and I do want to feel better about myself, BUT the main reason I'm doing this? My 2 1/2 year old daughter. She deserves to have a mommy that can run with her, play with her, and not get tired soon after starting. She deserves to have a healthy mommy.
See, I've always been the fat kid. I got teased a lot in school, didn't go on many dates. Face it: the guys that bigger girls like don't like bigger girls. They want the trophy girlfriends. Now, don't get me wrong, I did meet some guys that accepted me as I was....and for that I was thankful. I met John and he liked me the way I was. He likes me the way I am, but I don't like me. Does that make any sense at all? There are parts of me that I like...but the bad outweighs the good. So, here I am again. I'm on week 2 of however many weeks it will take to get me to a place where I am content. I know I have a journey ahead of me. All I have to do is look at my daughter, and I have the motivation that I need. Good friends are helping, too. I'm very blessed.
Friday, May 6, 2011
So much to say...
I've got TONS of stuff on my mind tonight. Guess it's as good a time as any to blog ;)
Mother's Day: I am very thankful for my daughter, my mother, and my mother-in-law, but this year is different because Ma won't be here with us. Honestly, I kinda wish we could just skip it this year. My heart's just not in it. On a similar note - I have Leah and I am extremely thankful, but my heart aches for those angel mommies, those waiting on adoptions to go through, or those just waiting on God's timing to make them mothers. I have been on the waiting end of it...it SUCKS. Just know that you are not alone and I wish I could hug each of you. I know there's a plan out there for each of you, just no one knows what it is.
Career stuff: You know...I am...um....er....29ish (ha!) and I have no idea what I want to do career wise. I love my job now. I've been at the same job for 12 1/2 years. My boss is WONDERFUL, but I know that one day there will come a day where I will have to find another job. I've thought about a few different things: being an appraiser (I have had my trainee's license since 2007 and it was going pretty well until the economy flopped so I let it lapse this last go round....I just don't have the oomph for it anymore), Nursing (it takes a VERY special person to be a nurse and I am just not that person), having my own business (umm...startup capital anyone?), HR (you usually have to have a Bachelor's which I don't have), etc. The list kinda goes on but nothing screams at me YES!! THAT IS WHAT I WANT TO DO! I'm so frustrated and I know that things will come around, but as a paycheck-to-paycheck family - I have to have some form of income. Bottom line.
Me: I don't even know where to begin with this one. I am so blah about everything (except Leah). Nothing excites me...nothing really wow's me. I was talking to my bestie's the other day and told them both - I have no passion for anything. I just go through the motions (Matthew West's song just popped in my head) of day-to-day stuff. I'm sick of my weight but don't have the motiviation to do something about it. I'm sick of looking frumpy but don't get up 10 minutes earlier to do my hair/makeup. You know, I guess I just kinda think "what's the point". That's an awful way to look at things, but this is my blog and I'm trying to be honest. I'm reading all these other weight loss blogs where these ladies have lost a significant amount of weight. They talk about how good they feel, how their clothes fit, and just how everything is changing for them. I read them and I'm amazed. I'm so jealous (Yes, Jealous) of how well they've done...the clothes they are in, etc....but yet I don't do anything about it. I'm hoping that changes. I pray that changes.
Misc: You know, there are sometimes that you just don't know quite what to say because you don't want to sound psycho. I have a horrible tendency to care about whoever. Seriously, if you were a part of my life for any amount of time...well, I still care. No, I'm not gonna go all psycho on you or anything, but know for the most part you have at least one person rooting for you.
I guess that's it, unless I decide to lay somemore out there.
~Shelly
Mother's Day: I am very thankful for my daughter, my mother, and my mother-in-law, but this year is different because Ma won't be here with us. Honestly, I kinda wish we could just skip it this year. My heart's just not in it. On a similar note - I have Leah and I am extremely thankful, but my heart aches for those angel mommies, those waiting on adoptions to go through, or those just waiting on God's timing to make them mothers. I have been on the waiting end of it...it SUCKS. Just know that you are not alone and I wish I could hug each of you. I know there's a plan out there for each of you, just no one knows what it is.
Career stuff: You know...I am...um....er....29ish (ha!) and I have no idea what I want to do career wise. I love my job now. I've been at the same job for 12 1/2 years. My boss is WONDERFUL, but I know that one day there will come a day where I will have to find another job. I've thought about a few different things: being an appraiser (I have had my trainee's license since 2007 and it was going pretty well until the economy flopped so I let it lapse this last go round....I just don't have the oomph for it anymore), Nursing (it takes a VERY special person to be a nurse and I am just not that person), having my own business (umm...startup capital anyone?), HR (you usually have to have a Bachelor's which I don't have), etc. The list kinda goes on but nothing screams at me YES!! THAT IS WHAT I WANT TO DO! I'm so frustrated and I know that things will come around, but as a paycheck-to-paycheck family - I have to have some form of income. Bottom line.
Me: I don't even know where to begin with this one. I am so blah about everything (except Leah). Nothing excites me...nothing really wow's me. I was talking to my bestie's the other day and told them both - I have no passion for anything. I just go through the motions (Matthew West's song just popped in my head) of day-to-day stuff. I'm sick of my weight but don't have the motiviation to do something about it. I'm sick of looking frumpy but don't get up 10 minutes earlier to do my hair/makeup. You know, I guess I just kinda think "what's the point". That's an awful way to look at things, but this is my blog and I'm trying to be honest. I'm reading all these other weight loss blogs where these ladies have lost a significant amount of weight. They talk about how good they feel, how their clothes fit, and just how everything is changing for them. I read them and I'm amazed. I'm so jealous (Yes, Jealous) of how well they've done...the clothes they are in, etc....but yet I don't do anything about it. I'm hoping that changes. I pray that changes.
Misc: You know, there are sometimes that you just don't know quite what to say because you don't want to sound psycho. I have a horrible tendency to care about whoever. Seriously, if you were a part of my life for any amount of time...well, I still care. No, I'm not gonna go all psycho on you or anything, but know for the most part you have at least one person rooting for you.
I guess that's it, unless I decide to lay somemore out there.
~Shelly
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
How's It Gonna Be?
-- I wrote this March 8, 2011....it showed up as January 26th so I had to edit it--
How is it that stuff that shouldn't bother you does? Did that even makes sense? Oh well - my blog - my thoughts -- get over it. I guess I'm not the only one that feels this way. One of my bestie's & I have discussed the situations that bug us and thankfully, she feels the same way I do. Things happen. People move on. You move on. The memories still remain. The happiness of what was there kinda hangs on like a cobweb. The what-if's haunt. People may fault me for my feelings or opinions. You know what? I'm human. I'm entitled to feelings. I'm entitled to my opinions. You don't like them? So? I don't like your shirt. Deal with it. ;) (that was supposed to be sarcastic humor).
On a different note: I'm ready for sunshine. I'm ready for spring flowers. I'm ready to be happy. A week ago today we laid my Ma to rest beside my Popa. I didn't think I'd be able to breathe but I did. Wednesday wasn't so hard. It's like a piece of me is missing BUT I have peace. It's not to say that there is going to be a day when I won't have a complete meltdown....but right now I am taking it day by day. I can only handle one day at a time.
How is it that stuff that shouldn't bother you does? Did that even makes sense? Oh well - my blog - my thoughts -- get over it. I guess I'm not the only one that feels this way. One of my bestie's & I have discussed the situations that bug us and thankfully, she feels the same way I do. Things happen. People move on. You move on. The memories still remain. The happiness of what was there kinda hangs on like a cobweb. The what-if's haunt. People may fault me for my feelings or opinions. You know what? I'm human. I'm entitled to feelings. I'm entitled to my opinions. You don't like them? So? I don't like your shirt. Deal with it. ;) (that was supposed to be sarcastic humor).
On a different note: I'm ready for sunshine. I'm ready for spring flowers. I'm ready to be happy. A week ago today we laid my Ma to rest beside my Popa. I didn't think I'd be able to breathe but I did. Wednesday wasn't so hard. It's like a piece of me is missing BUT I have peace. It's not to say that there is going to be a day when I won't have a complete meltdown....but right now I am taking it day by day. I can only handle one day at a time.
Saturday, January 1, 2011
A new year...another new beginning....
Happy 2011 all you **fabulous** people!
So I guess this year will start with the same resolutions we make every year: eat better, exercise more, be in better financial shape...you know the same old, same old.
But instead of starting this year that way....Hubs and I decided to END 2010 that way. We joined a gym on Thursday. Hubs went that afternoon, and I went yesterday. He's already been this morning, and I'm going to go in a little bit. I really hope this is the year that things happen. I seriously want to be a healthier me. A better mom, a better wife...a better everything. I think my weight holds me back on a lot of stuff. Mainly, just feeling comfortable in a room.
I (please hold your laughter) really want to do a 5k. Seriously. I don't care if I have to walk the thing I want to do it. My ultimate goal? A half marathon. I think I can...better yet. I know I can. I just have to get there.
So I guess this year will start with the same resolutions we make every year: eat better, exercise more, be in better financial shape...you know the same old, same old.
But instead of starting this year that way....Hubs and I decided to END 2010 that way. We joined a gym on Thursday. Hubs went that afternoon, and I went yesterday. He's already been this morning, and I'm going to go in a little bit. I really hope this is the year that things happen. I seriously want to be a healthier me. A better mom, a better wife...a better everything. I think my weight holds me back on a lot of stuff. Mainly, just feeling comfortable in a room.
I (please hold your laughter) really want to do a 5k. Seriously. I don't care if I have to walk the thing I want to do it. My ultimate goal? A half marathon. I think I can...better yet. I know I can. I just have to get there.
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